Middle of the Month October

Here is the thing… I spent more money than is good for me but then again, I can. I am not spending money I don’t have. I am spending the money I earned. I have to say I worked so hard the whole year to afford all of this and I am not only talking about the stuff I do show but the thing is if I want to go out and buy Starbucks or a tuna sandwich at Greggs or a big bottle of juice at M&S, I can and I will.

I have been learning so much about myself, and about what I want in life. How I want to live, study, and be as a person. What makes me the happiest person and what makes me sad or upset?  I can’t tell you how this affected me. I am not living a normal life at the moment. I am not living in the way most eighteen-year-old people I know live. Everyone is still in school and here I am working full time and yes it’s hours go towards my degree but it feels like proper work.

This is going to affect my life so much when I am back but for me at this point, I can’t explain how it will change me although I know it will and I know it has. I already feel it. I feel so grateful to have had this experience and to be still in the middle of it. To this date, it’s the best thing I’ve ever done. I have gained so much confidence in myself. I am naturally shy when meeting new people but I have been going out a lot on my own and getting more comfortable talking to people. Returning things or asking for help goes so much better, I used to find that very hard and I have noticed a huge shift in my mindset. I hope I can carry this with me when my time here is over.

Lots of love,
Melissa